Everyday i pray , denting my knee cap on the ground ,beseeching every single seconds that this day would be far away from my life time. I know i would never be ready for this , no one will be able to endure this hurricane of self realization.
But i miscalculated , Ive been trying so hard to push it away , hiding behind the great wall of truth. The more i deny the veracity , the more it swim onto the surface of my life. Trying to unearth itself , trying to acknowledge its true form for the world to learn , parading its pride.
Today I wake up , and see it appear on my screen. Smiling to me , the face , the face implying that succession has been planted. That no matter how far i ran away , it would only make me closer to him. From my heart i know that this will never go away , its like a tumor in my brain , getting bigger and stronger , uncureable.
Today i wake up and see this