I swear my butt was inches away from the water.

Hello and good evening to my fellow almost decreasing reader,

Hmm, well i have nothing to write about really. Life has been so rapidly progressive. Its like everything is moving literally at the pace of blurry motion , or that could just be because i have once again neglected to force my self to the optician for curing my detrimental vision condition.

I used to think that 24 hours was freaking long , I mean why cant we have only 3 hours a day and a night, wouldnt it be great going to school that lasted no more than 30 minutes. But then again every school hormone raging teens/kids would feel the same ways , and it would not change even a notion bit, not with your same ol same ol i-see-no-future-in-you perception that teacher usually have towards the pupils.

But now, sheessh! i wish the day would stretch more longer that it already written on the law book of universe. Too many work to be done , toooo little time on a side. Sometimes i have a hard time deciding which one is more important where both of them are my top priority. I could easily mini-maini-mo the options with both eyes closed but then this isnt an History high school paper where the worst that could happen was just another grader lower , this is life for heaven sake.

I thought that when im done with degree i'd have more time for my self. Go to spa on an idle Tuesday afternoon , woke up late on Wednesday only to find out that there is another 2 hours left before the day settle itself , watching series after series that i diligently downloaded from the net and of course playing kites on the windy Saturday morning. But my schedule had entirely become more chaotic than it was before. I dont even have time to blog relentlessly like i used to.

OK Done with the rant.

Anyways , i just came back from Thailand. I didnt captured that many pictures to be publish here but i do have some interesting pictures taken on this beautifully structured restaurant. It is located somewhere in Danok. This was the first time i had ever encountered such dining place before. It was a refreshing experience i would say. Hut after hut arranged in curvy manner just inches above the lake. Yes u are virtually floating while dining and the way they serve their food was kindda unique because an actual boat will be approaching your hut with dishes that u initially ordered. And oh! u can actually sleep as well because there are bunch of pillows already scattered around the hut just waiting for ur head to be mounted on them. The food is uber delicious too , if only the price werent that expensive.

Let these picture do the talk coz the finger aint typing no more.

kebatakan seorg manusia dgn teknologi

NIi AKU TGH UPDATE GUNE ENPON WEH..bATAK GILA NI..OK BYE

Woot Woot

I hereby declare that today was my malas day with boifren. He came to my house around 12-ish which i left him annoyingly dingdonging about half an hour outside my pink door house. It wasnt my intention letting him almost decompose along with the ray of sunshine , I was in the shower and the music was kindda loud even to a deaf person , moreover , my ears arent quite in their best condition , not for the pass few months they arent.

Anyways, last nite before I went of to bed with my new found blankie (yes i am 23 and i still have a blankie which i bring together to sleep and salivated mindlessly on those soft and addictive piece of worned-off cloth) which popo gave it to me that evening , I diligently planned my itemize roaster for tomorrow which supposedly to start with me bringing the dirty laundry to the dobi , pays my maintainance fees at the office , traveling to MMU with boifren to settle up the credit transfer for BM (ughh bugger!) , and lastly rewarding myself watching a mind-boggling , mental-teasing , life-altering, adrenalin-stripping Transformer 2 : Revenge of The Fallen at Pyramid.

THE MOVIE WAS UBBER AWESOME!! This movie even better than the previous one because they have more robots , more transformation and definitely more jikjikjik sound (the sound that they make when transforming). It would be such a shame and waste for one not to claim their rights as a human with this highly CGI movie at their nearest cinema.

Oh , i havent finish on my story yet .

So i endup doing none of my tedious roaster of my TO DO LIST but straight went to Pyramid instead. Such a role model i am. If laziness could be turn into gold , i'd a leprechaun right now.

Oh have u guys checkup my blogtique teaser yet?

Bloqtique. Mine.

After so many weeks of doing nothing and kept myself idle , i decided to do something useful for me and my country. I decided to sell clothes. For time being the website is still under construction hence the print screen image above (notice the grid?). Still many things to plan and consider. But i already have the clothes tho. So whoever wants to have a sneak peek on my collection just drop me an e-mail at ishirtyounot@yahoo.com.

Oh did i mention that the name of my blogshop is gonna be I SHIRT YOU NOT. Its kindda similar to ur everyday phrase "I Shit You Not" but a little less stinky and stenchy.

Some support from u guys would mean a world to me.Show some love.
So click here to redirect ur browser to the website which is still under development. But i got teaser tho. TQ!

I SHIRT YOU NOT

Happy Father's Day!

I am the luckiest girl in the world because not only i have two dad but also two incredible soul that will always love and support me no matter how i turn out to be. The most impeccable treasure that god sent upon me and my other sibling to guide us through life. No word can describe how thankful i am.

Happy Father's Day Papa and Baba

p/s : seeeeee i got twoooo dadd!! hahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh take that superman! weeeeeeeeeee

Autobiography : Guess What Am I ? - [Chapter 1]

Medical Alert the Sequel

Hello,

I just woke up , well not really "just" ,ive been awake since the sun has its first sly peek of the day. Again , not really "awake" tho , ive been rolling and dreaming half-asleep more like it. U cant expect me to sleep comfortably serene in an hospital ward now could u? Do u think its fun to stay in the room where the wall is so frigging white it almost appear transparent. I can actualy feel that the wall is staring ghastly at me , as if they have eyes as big as the size of Saruman's where it has a red laser pointing out and trying to tediously scan my soul , waiting to mercilessly suck it dry from my helpless shell and labeled it on a wooden fiery shelf among thousand or maybe more trapped innocent soul.

The bed , oh the bed ,dont they have other terms for bed in hospital? I think they should replace the word bed in hospital because whenever "bed" it self arrive on our thoughts, it would automatically relate to a comfy situation where we can just lie happily , release our self from all day burden and just succumb to the sweet sweet surrender of pure relaxation. But the feeling about being on this bed inside this provided close space for patient is nothing close to my definition of bedding. It would not only brutally smash your emotion down down low until u excrete a couple of depression turd but would also encourage u to plan for ur own sepulture which is a fancy word (if not less terifying) for funeral.

I can go on and on and on about the sadness being in this ward without any companion but i cant

BECOZ M NOT EVEN IN A HOSPITAL!!

hahahhaha gotchaaa!!! did i scare the hell out of u??? are u thisssss close to call me to ask my condition?? NO? demnit! i guess m not that important after all! hahhahaha

ahhh~ the feeling of gibberish is so electrifyingly overwhelming.

Anyways , my greatest mummy brought me to seek medical attention at one of the local clinic. The doctor diagnosed me with urine infection. Apparently , there is a problem with the function of my kidney filtration. He gave me the usual have-to-finish-consume antibiotic , a pain killer and this concentrated liquid that suppose to cleanse off my urination system. I hope nuthing serious would surface from this tho. So far the pain has gone away and my urine never been so clear. So clear i could fool people into thinking that it is a drinking water.

Medical Alert

I think i might have a serious internal problem of my system.
My lower part of abdomen keep on aching each time i make a motion.

Im freaking out right here , what if it turns out to be malignant? Do they have to poke and penetrate through my skin and fix the problem once and for all? What if the failure is futile? Would i be able to progress my life like a normal healthy person? All sort of unhappy drama is playing on my mind right now.

M not done living yet , there is so much i want to do , need to do.

If the pain continues tonite , i think i might have to be admit. Not necessarily of course but it is standard insurance policy , where u have to be admit at least one day to claim ur medical insurance. I never been admitted before. What if there is an headless transparency ghost hovering on top of me while m sleeping? demn. Is the nurse there as scarier as i always imagined they would be? All those raunchy and lewd images of sexy nurses wearing a scantily outfit didnt quite put me on the safe side, emotionally that is. My imaginations need to rest or else ill end up freaking out a little bit too much.

Then again , this could be nothing but still i really ought to check it out , just to be on the safe side.

Wish me luck everyone. Ill report more on this matter. Maybe ill report on the blatantly white sheet bed where i lie uncomfortably with one too many wires attached inside my skin. sad huh?

p/s : sayang i miss u so much. see what happen when u are not here by my side. i got sick and u are no where to be reach. :((

Yet Another Pointless Post

I have become increasingly boring nowadays.
I have no topic to write about , even if it is concerning my every day life , which is also always oh-so-consistently uninteresting.

WEH DUCK!! tulis padam tulis padam tulis padam. padan la muka hang diena oii , otak pandai2 tak guna. pemalaih tak guna punya budak hakkk ptuihhhh.


anyways,
hafiq has gone to kelantan and leave me alone right here for 2 days. i need my zen back!!

and this stupid ghost hunter/analyzer documentary show at RIA do nuthing but annoyed the hell out of me.

ok this post is pointless. i really need to start writing properly again , with passion and interesting content to present and this time no vaguing around.

Final Year Project Rendered in Low Quality Video

Ive been wanting to posted evidences from my final year project that ive been hassling about these past few months , but ive always been occupied with some other things that i almost always forgotten about it.

But the laziness of arranging the interfaces still holding me back.

And this is when video comes in handy. THANK GOD I DONT LIVE BACKWARDS!

So yeah enjoy the video.

Verdict No 001

Verdict No 002

The Place. Never again.

I was this close to technology deprived until my mom suddenly told me that she had brought along her laptop all this while. Being away where the term internet connection itself is as rare as digging an oil behind ur backyard where everything is made of parquet. I dont know how do ppl even live here.

The humid whether even make it ridiculously impossible to build a comfortable life here.Dont get me started about the people. I mean , those who born and reside ever since in KL but had to go back every once a year is a different story because they are better in the manners department and that well being is acceptable.

No wonder their existent always put in exile.

Carrying such pride will only end up with cynical look or a mocking hiss from others , this is not because of the superior root they have but merely because of the disgusted thoughts and the stereotype these people portray in general. I need not have to unveil where is this place , but all u have to know is it sucks beyond words could describe.Where else would people be so willingly to abstemious themselves to an extent of an extent?

Maybe I was at the wrong side of the place where every bad seed nestle and being push and cover up at the corner of the area. Maybe i havent been to the well develop area where everything is what i am familiar of or what i can sheepishly called civilization. I know its not my place to judge or criticize them and the way they had been living for centuries but issit gonna hurt to accept a little bit of modernization? Not materially but mentally.

p/s : and having a swollen gum and an aching teeth doesnt help in sobering me up either. what a nice week to shed of my tired mind.

This is not the end

No more late nite chatting worrying about unfinished assignment

No more sleepless nite completing project

No more taking pictures together like we always do

No more fooling around behind the teacher's back

Many no more to be listed

demn i am so gonna miss college year.

DM'ans 2009 always in my heart.

Ketumbuhan yg annoying

I dont know where have i gone these past few months but it seemed that something had been growing discreetly inside me. My acknowledgment regarding this natural hidden development is null and unacceptable considering i am the bearer of this preposterous evolution. Its not only revealed its unpleasant feature to the world but also a down right annoyance that scarred my emotion , badly.

DUCK U WISDOM TOOTHHHH!!! why do u have to partially exist in between my gum. cant u be as normal as other wisdom teeths out there , flourishing to its full form, grow luxuriantly. Why do u have to be such a effin pain in the effin ass?

tlg la, gigi tumbuh separuh2 tak kelakar ok.

Quick note

Seriously , blogging doesnt hold my interest anymore. I am currently busy finishing up my final year project which by now look somehow promising. My body is aching in every single bone intact , time never seemed to be enough. I am so lucky to be blessed with a understanding boyfriend who help me through thick and thin during the progress of this project. I love u sayang!

Anyways , ill be back with more ridiculous story. IF! and only if.

but for now , bye bye.

p/s : maybe ill post some photos of the installations soon. maybe not.

Two Muffins on a Pumpkin Stools

See what this two little munchkin get from their grandmama. As if being a human isnt superior enuff , but its cute nevertheless. I have this kind too only mine has a little amount of cloth comparing to theirs.

I was this close to insanity and then BAAMMMM!! i ter-jizz in my pants

this past 72 hrs has been the craziest and most hectic moment i had ever encountered in my 22 years of breathing the unseen air, 'cept for those first few minutes of my birth when i first popped out from my mom's <insert any candy's name here> disguised as a usb thumbdrive. get it? usb? plugged in? into the socket? no? fffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!! to be fair i didnt get it either.

anyways, tmrw is my final of the grandmother hell of a final submission, meaning that my years of study is coming to and end. Currently my application is perfect for a deaf person to play because all those sound fx havent been added yet. Later m going to cinta hati's house and hes gonna apply his magic touch to me , i mean for me, and by magic touch i mean his skill of sound editing and by for me i mean for my application and by application i mean my <insert anything that tingles ur jingles>

After eating yesterday spaghetti that his mom cooked m off to subang. The taste of the sauce is so significant. Its like a lap dance on my taste bud , only better coz i dont have to pay any of those stripper to please me. And by stripper i mean sexy jizzy cover magazine male figure wearing a sexual harassment panda's costume (refer South Park Episode)

Anyways , here are some pictures of me doing it with an invisible <insert anyone who had died for the past couple of year because of global warming, might be someone relatively close to u,might be not.>

p/s: wish me luck ppl! u gotta wish me luck goddammitt! if u are not then so help me that i would burn ur asses to ashes,and by then even the black ppl dont welcome u in their community.TODDLES!

The day that i become one step closer in mating with technologies

Everyday i pray , denting my knee cap on the ground ,beseeching every single seconds that this day would be far away from my life time. I know i would never be ready for this , no one will be able to endure this hurricane of self realization.

But i miscalculated , Ive been trying so hard to push it away , hiding behind the great wall of truth. The more i deny the veracity , the more it swim onto the surface of my life. Trying to unearth itself , trying to acknowledge its true form for the world to learn , parading its pride.

Today I wake up , and see it appear on my screen. Smiling to me , the face , the face implying that succession has been planted. That no matter how far i ran away , it would only make me closer to him. From my heart i know that this will never go away , its like a tumor in my brain , getting bigger and stronger , uncureable.

Today i wake up and see this

BRIX SHALL BE SHAT

I know i could never go back in being a normal person for i am now an ultimate 1337-ers beyond a person could be.

p/s : sapa tak paham padan muka.

In the brink of exhaustion

If my very existence only valid in d game world , my hp would be negative zero without any item left in the inventory to help me to get through the level. Cepat la habis FYP nie..kenot go da nie. My application pun tak siap lagi. Montage pun tak siap lagi. After Effects crash. PC lembab.

MUMMY KAKAK NAK MACBOOK PROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mummy la ibu yg paling cantik di duniaaa! dan lawa dan jelita dan pandai masak dan pandai berkebun pandai buat kuih pandai cakap. semua mami pandaiii!! tapi kalau mami beli macbook pro kat kakak mami akan jadi yg paling agung skali antara semua pandai. hehehe.

anyways, tonite, chelsea vs barca. good luck boys~

That night where i almost punch his face. Almost!

Tempat : Mamak
Time : Malam
Mission : Beli rokok

There was only one ciggy stick left in the box so i decided to buy another one for my companion tonite. I walked at the counter located at the corner of the shop.

dw : mamak bagi marlboro merah 14 satu
mamak : *amek rokok kat counter* Nah! *rude much~*

The mamak gave me the red medium pack of marlboro rudely but despite his astrocios behavior , i still have the sanity to took the packet politely and with grace my mom taught me while growing up. I hold the packet firmly and look at it. Suddenly i felt the air around me stop , the distinct sound of ppl chattering and muttering gradually faded away , the time has been momentarily frozen.

dw : err aneeee~ *sambil goyang kepale cam yg pemenan toink toink toink dalam teksi tu*
mamak : apa lu mau lagii?
dw : err..bole saya mintak rokok perisa kaki tak?
mamak : mana ada perisa kaki..kaki saya ada la..lu mau?
dw : *cakap sambil ketap bibir* tak neeeeeeeeeee...saye nak gambar kaki
mamak : apasai lu tamau itu gambar..very prettyy..very beutifulll..veryyy cuteee~..merah sana merah sini
dw : aku taknak isap rokok anak alien la cib-..neeeeeeee~ *almost lose it* bagi je la gambar kaki

the man with black mask handed me over the packet and i walked away vowed never not to return to this particular mamak again.

Another Nasik Lemak Stall Tragedy - The Sequel (Part 2)

For those who didnt read the previous part of this real life story u can go and read it here

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It was roughly around 7.30 when i unblocked my view from the shining ray of the sun. The room temperature was colder than it usually is , maybe that was because I've forgotten to switch off the air conditioner. I never really like using the a/c tho because the air coming out from it never do any justice to my throat or skin. I mustered all the consciousness that I got to refrained myself from reclining at the head of the bed coz i know i'd fall asleep instantly if i do that. I forced my body and mind to adapt to the crude reality. No more dream world bebeh.

Suddenly I remember something, I have a mission today. Its a vital mission that should be executed immediately in order to clarify all the hazy confusion. Ive been tediously plotting this mission the whole night under my blanket, and it must not go wrong in any ways.Realizing that I quickly get off my bed , stripped myself bare , hastily grabbed one of the white towel and take the longest most painstakingly shower i ever had. I scrubbed every nook of my body twice with special blend of lavender and the finest sea salt. Washed my hair thoroughly and conditioned it with a conditioner (duh~). I brushed my teeth using the new toothbrush i just bought , flossed it properly and finally rinse it with the strong most mintiest mouth wash ever.

After my morning shower , I smothered my body with lotion covering every inch of my dirt-less figure.My skin feel so much smoother and silkier. Now its the most crucial time ever , its the time of self-confidence on preserving the dignity , its the time for dressing up. I stepped myself towards the almost half-empty wardrobe , eying on what attract me the most . At first i wanted to chose a black collar t-shirt but then i remember how freaking hot it is nowadays so i settled with a white babydoll dress instead.

I scanned my reflection on the mirror ."This gotta do it" i told myself. Now its time for dolling up. I put on my basic foundation followed up by a neatly dash of mascara on my short ashes to give some dramatic effects on my eyes. After some final touch up , making sure that everything was completely prepared by plan.

I grabbed my bag full of unnecessary things like yesterday banana bread or measurement tape or garbage plastic bag in case i need a rain coat , u know how erratic the whether is nowadays so passing judgment arent welcome. I rummaged inside the content of my bag searching for the only bundles of keys that i have which consist of - car , my house , my mom's house and room's keys. You can tell one's level of dignity just by looking at their keys , and judging by mine , i am indeed one hellava nun. After a few streaks of paper cuts on my hand(another unwanted rubbish nestling in my bag) i finally managed to find the keys. I separated my house keys from others and put the head of that almost rusty key inside the also almost decay keyhole. Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa m outside the house this very moment. How magical! (i got to lay off those coughing syrup. like seriously)

I advanced myself peacefully towards my parking lot where my car is safely being guarded by two invisible one-eyes ogres. I pointed tet tot tet tot directly at my car and tekan tet tot tet tot , and my car bunyik tet tot tet tot. My car is now , unlocked. It was previously tightly locked because i tekan tet tot tet tot the night before. Sometimes i like to play with tet tot tet tot and pretending to interact with the car because i often feel lonely and somewhat u ppl called friendless in real life. (this statement has not been altered by any means. it is as original as it was first being thought of)

I positioned myself to a familiarly comfortable seating known to me all this while. Soon after , i ignited the engine until it roars fiercely breaking the silent sound of the morning. My car is now moving in the motion of up down up down up down just like a crappy undone stop motion minus that cheesy background music they usually put in the movie. The car now was navigating its way following the steering-wheel that is under my control.

The air coming out from the small opening of the manufactured a/c eliminates the sweat that gushing out unstoppably from my glands. Suddenly the sudden rush of anxiousness blasting its way to my awareness. I was nervous and started to considering another options for this. But decision has been made , i told my self. Its now or never! I pulled out some tissue and gently wiped it over the area that has been dampened by my sweet sweet sweat. I closed my eyes and cleared my heads. Now i am ready.

As soon as i reached the second guard post at my condo , i quickly winded down the window. I put my hands out as if i was leisurely enjoying the morning and put on my cool face. I want her to see this , I want her to see how sophisticated and educated and talented I am. I want her to witness the glorious moment of me driving a car , a transportation with 4 wheels and doors that keep ppl from falling off the road.

From far i could see her stall , standing there . I could felt the mockery lies beneath every object or food at her stall. I wanna show here what i am and what i am soon becoming to be , a successful woman with a degree of intelligent of her own. I AM SO READY!! MAKCIK NASIK LEMAK U ARE SO GONNA GET IT FROM ME!!

I directed my view to where she wud usually sit ,behind the table. Oh deng , she was no where to be seen. The table was there , the van which she used to carry all her stuff was there , but the makcik was not there. I wasted my morning just for this? Just for 5 minutes or self assurance and leveling up my ego?

DUCK UUUUUUU MAKCIKKKKKKKKK!!!!!! see what have u turned me into! ive turned into a self-concious person which i was not before!!

So , after the transient of frustration moment , i steered my car back to my house. On my way back , i can see the makcik was there but what is the meaning of showcasing my status if my confidence has been violently crushed down . My plan has backfired me. This mission has "FAILED" written all over it. Once again makcik nasik lemak has pawned me in a ways that i never anticipate it wud be.

This isnt over yet, u hear me! its not over!!

p/s : malas nak betul kan gramamamar