This is not the end

No more late nite chatting worrying about unfinished assignment

No more sleepless nite completing project

No more taking pictures together like we always do

No more fooling around behind the teacher's back

Many no more to be listed

demn i am so gonna miss college year.

DM'ans 2009 always in my heart.

Ketumbuhan yg annoying

I dont know where have i gone these past few months but it seemed that something had been growing discreetly inside me. My acknowledgment regarding this natural hidden development is null and unacceptable considering i am the bearer of this preposterous evolution. Its not only revealed its unpleasant feature to the world but also a down right annoyance that scarred my emotion , badly.

DUCK U WISDOM TOOTHHHH!!! why do u have to partially exist in between my gum. cant u be as normal as other wisdom teeths out there , flourishing to its full form, grow luxuriantly. Why do u have to be such a effin pain in the effin ass?

tlg la, gigi tumbuh separuh2 tak kelakar ok.

Quick note

Seriously , blogging doesnt hold my interest anymore. I am currently busy finishing up my final year project which by now look somehow promising. My body is aching in every single bone intact , time never seemed to be enough. I am so lucky to be blessed with a understanding boyfriend who help me through thick and thin during the progress of this project. I love u sayang!

Anyways , ill be back with more ridiculous story. IF! and only if.

but for now , bye bye.

p/s : maybe ill post some photos of the installations soon. maybe not.

Two Muffins on a Pumpkin Stools

See what this two little munchkin get from their grandmama. As if being a human isnt superior enuff , but its cute nevertheless. I have this kind too only mine has a little amount of cloth comparing to theirs.

I was this close to insanity and then BAAMMMM!! i ter-jizz in my pants

this past 72 hrs has been the craziest and most hectic moment i had ever encountered in my 22 years of breathing the unseen air, 'cept for those first few minutes of my birth when i first popped out from my mom's <insert any candy's name here> disguised as a usb thumbdrive. get it? usb? plugged in? into the socket? no? fffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!! to be fair i didnt get it either.

anyways, tmrw is my final of the grandmother hell of a final submission, meaning that my years of study is coming to and end. Currently my application is perfect for a deaf person to play because all those sound fx havent been added yet. Later m going to cinta hati's house and hes gonna apply his magic touch to me , i mean for me, and by magic touch i mean his skill of sound editing and by for me i mean for my application and by application i mean my <insert anything that tingles ur jingles>

After eating yesterday spaghetti that his mom cooked m off to subang. The taste of the sauce is so significant. Its like a lap dance on my taste bud , only better coz i dont have to pay any of those stripper to please me. And by stripper i mean sexy jizzy cover magazine male figure wearing a sexual harassment panda's costume (refer South Park Episode)

Anyways , here are some pictures of me doing it with an invisible <insert anyone who had died for the past couple of year because of global warming, might be someone relatively close to u,might be not.>

p/s: wish me luck ppl! u gotta wish me luck goddammitt! if u are not then so help me that i would burn ur asses to ashes,and by then even the black ppl dont welcome u in their community.TODDLES!

The day that i become one step closer in mating with technologies

Everyday i pray , denting my knee cap on the ground ,beseeching every single seconds that this day would be far away from my life time. I know i would never be ready for this , no one will be able to endure this hurricane of self realization.

But i miscalculated , Ive been trying so hard to push it away , hiding behind the great wall of truth. The more i deny the veracity , the more it swim onto the surface of my life. Trying to unearth itself , trying to acknowledge its true form for the world to learn , parading its pride.

Today I wake up , and see it appear on my screen. Smiling to me , the face , the face implying that succession has been planted. That no matter how far i ran away , it would only make me closer to him. From my heart i know that this will never go away , its like a tumor in my brain , getting bigger and stronger , uncureable.

Today i wake up and see this

BRIX SHALL BE SHAT

I know i could never go back in being a normal person for i am now an ultimate 1337-ers beyond a person could be.

p/s : sapa tak paham padan muka.

In the brink of exhaustion

If my very existence only valid in d game world , my hp would be negative zero without any item left in the inventory to help me to get through the level. Cepat la habis FYP nie..kenot go da nie. My application pun tak siap lagi. Montage pun tak siap lagi. After Effects crash. PC lembab.

MUMMY KAKAK NAK MACBOOK PROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mummy la ibu yg paling cantik di duniaaa! dan lawa dan jelita dan pandai masak dan pandai berkebun pandai buat kuih pandai cakap. semua mami pandaiii!! tapi kalau mami beli macbook pro kat kakak mami akan jadi yg paling agung skali antara semua pandai. hehehe.

anyways, tonite, chelsea vs barca. good luck boys~

That night where i almost punch his face. Almost!

Tempat : Mamak
Time : Malam
Mission : Beli rokok

There was only one ciggy stick left in the box so i decided to buy another one for my companion tonite. I walked at the counter located at the corner of the shop.

dw : mamak bagi marlboro merah 14 satu
mamak : *amek rokok kat counter* Nah! *rude much~*

The mamak gave me the red medium pack of marlboro rudely but despite his astrocios behavior , i still have the sanity to took the packet politely and with grace my mom taught me while growing up. I hold the packet firmly and look at it. Suddenly i felt the air around me stop , the distinct sound of ppl chattering and muttering gradually faded away , the time has been momentarily frozen.

dw : err aneeee~ *sambil goyang kepale cam yg pemenan toink toink toink dalam teksi tu*
mamak : apa lu mau lagii?
dw : err..bole saya mintak rokok perisa kaki tak?
mamak : mana ada perisa kaki..kaki saya ada la..lu mau?
dw : *cakap sambil ketap bibir* tak neeeeeeeeeee...saye nak gambar kaki
mamak : apasai lu tamau itu gambar..very prettyy..very beutifulll..veryyy cuteee~..merah sana merah sini
dw : aku taknak isap rokok anak alien la cib-..neeeeeeee~ *almost lose it* bagi je la gambar kaki

the man with black mask handed me over the packet and i walked away vowed never not to return to this particular mamak again.

Another Nasik Lemak Stall Tragedy - The Sequel (Part 2)

For those who didnt read the previous part of this real life story u can go and read it here

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It was roughly around 7.30 when i unblocked my view from the shining ray of the sun. The room temperature was colder than it usually is , maybe that was because I've forgotten to switch off the air conditioner. I never really like using the a/c tho because the air coming out from it never do any justice to my throat or skin. I mustered all the consciousness that I got to refrained myself from reclining at the head of the bed coz i know i'd fall asleep instantly if i do that. I forced my body and mind to adapt to the crude reality. No more dream world bebeh.

Suddenly I remember something, I have a mission today. Its a vital mission that should be executed immediately in order to clarify all the hazy confusion. Ive been tediously plotting this mission the whole night under my blanket, and it must not go wrong in any ways.Realizing that I quickly get off my bed , stripped myself bare , hastily grabbed one of the white towel and take the longest most painstakingly shower i ever had. I scrubbed every nook of my body twice with special blend of lavender and the finest sea salt. Washed my hair thoroughly and conditioned it with a conditioner (duh~). I brushed my teeth using the new toothbrush i just bought , flossed it properly and finally rinse it with the strong most mintiest mouth wash ever.

After my morning shower , I smothered my body with lotion covering every inch of my dirt-less figure.My skin feel so much smoother and silkier. Now its the most crucial time ever , its the time of self-confidence on preserving the dignity , its the time for dressing up. I stepped myself towards the almost half-empty wardrobe , eying on what attract me the most . At first i wanted to chose a black collar t-shirt but then i remember how freaking hot it is nowadays so i settled with a white babydoll dress instead.

I scanned my reflection on the mirror ."This gotta do it" i told myself. Now its time for dolling up. I put on my basic foundation followed up by a neatly dash of mascara on my short ashes to give some dramatic effects on my eyes. After some final touch up , making sure that everything was completely prepared by plan.

I grabbed my bag full of unnecessary things like yesterday banana bread or measurement tape or garbage plastic bag in case i need a rain coat , u know how erratic the whether is nowadays so passing judgment arent welcome. I rummaged inside the content of my bag searching for the only bundles of keys that i have which consist of - car , my house , my mom's house and room's keys. You can tell one's level of dignity just by looking at their keys , and judging by mine , i am indeed one hellava nun. After a few streaks of paper cuts on my hand(another unwanted rubbish nestling in my bag) i finally managed to find the keys. I separated my house keys from others and put the head of that almost rusty key inside the also almost decay keyhole. Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa m outside the house this very moment. How magical! (i got to lay off those coughing syrup. like seriously)

I advanced myself peacefully towards my parking lot where my car is safely being guarded by two invisible one-eyes ogres. I pointed tet tot tet tot directly at my car and tekan tet tot tet tot , and my car bunyik tet tot tet tot. My car is now , unlocked. It was previously tightly locked because i tekan tet tot tet tot the night before. Sometimes i like to play with tet tot tet tot and pretending to interact with the car because i often feel lonely and somewhat u ppl called friendless in real life. (this statement has not been altered by any means. it is as original as it was first being thought of)

I positioned myself to a familiarly comfortable seating known to me all this while. Soon after , i ignited the engine until it roars fiercely breaking the silent sound of the morning. My car is now moving in the motion of up down up down up down just like a crappy undone stop motion minus that cheesy background music they usually put in the movie. The car now was navigating its way following the steering-wheel that is under my control.

The air coming out from the small opening of the manufactured a/c eliminates the sweat that gushing out unstoppably from my glands. Suddenly the sudden rush of anxiousness blasting its way to my awareness. I was nervous and started to considering another options for this. But decision has been made , i told my self. Its now or never! I pulled out some tissue and gently wiped it over the area that has been dampened by my sweet sweet sweat. I closed my eyes and cleared my heads. Now i am ready.

As soon as i reached the second guard post at my condo , i quickly winded down the window. I put my hands out as if i was leisurely enjoying the morning and put on my cool face. I want her to see this , I want her to see how sophisticated and educated and talented I am. I want her to witness the glorious moment of me driving a car , a transportation with 4 wheels and doors that keep ppl from falling off the road.

From far i could see her stall , standing there . I could felt the mockery lies beneath every object or food at her stall. I wanna show here what i am and what i am soon becoming to be , a successful woman with a degree of intelligent of her own. I AM SO READY!! MAKCIK NASIK LEMAK U ARE SO GONNA GET IT FROM ME!!

I directed my view to where she wud usually sit ,behind the table. Oh deng , she was no where to be seen. The table was there , the van which she used to carry all her stuff was there , but the makcik was not there. I wasted my morning just for this? Just for 5 minutes or self assurance and leveling up my ego?

DUCK UUUUUUU MAKCIKKKKKKKKK!!!!!! see what have u turned me into! ive turned into a self-concious person which i was not before!!

So , after the transient of frustration moment , i steered my car back to my house. On my way back , i can see the makcik was there but what is the meaning of showcasing my status if my confidence has been violently crushed down . My plan has backfired me. This mission has "FAILED" written all over it. Once again makcik nasik lemak has pawned me in a ways that i never anticipate it wud be.

This isnt over yet, u hear me! its not over!!

p/s : malas nak betul kan gramamamar